Obsessed

Pregnancy has brought one a whole new wave of obsessions. I've always obsessed about things, keeping my house clean, buying new clothes, purses, Mexican food. But I've found myself obsessing over things that I either never thought of or hated pre-pregnancy. And yes, most of them deal with food.

Pre-pregnancy, I hated Chick-Fil-A, I thought it was bland, overrated, and simply a hunk of chicken on a bun. Now, it is a current obsession. I love it, I pine for it, I think about it always, and I will wait in a ginourmous drive-thru line just to get it. Luckily, I'm obsessed with the grilled chicken sandwich which is not actually that bad calorie wise. And the line today was so long they gave me a coupon for a free sandwich, score!

My other major food obsession is cookies. I've always liked cookies, I would never turn one down if presented to me, but I never actually purchased them or kept them in my house. Now, if three o'clock rolls around and I haven't had a cookie yet, I find myself jonesing for one bad. Like I need a cookie right now or someone's head is going to roll bad. I'm now frequenting lunch places that also have a bakery just so I can buy a cookie. I buy bags of them at the store and pack them up as snacks. They are my new drug. Before bed I have to have milk and cookies. (This is partly due to my raging heartburn, milk helps, a lot. And if you are going to be drinking milk, might as well throw in a cookie). Around ten o'clock in the morning, I start wondering, "is it too early for a cookie?" "Will anyone judge me if I eat a cookie right now?" "I'll just have one, I can stop anytime." And then I gobble up three.

I am grossly aware that I have a cookie problem. I won't admit to a Chik-Fil-A problem because I eat the grilled chicken sandwich, see how healthy I am? And you know what, I'm not going to fully admit to a cookie problem either. My cookie of choice is oatmeal raisin. Hello, whole grains and dried fruit...totally healthy. In fact, when Stephanie was little and only ate mayonnaise sandwiches, my grandma used to make her eat oatmeal cookies because they were healthy. If grandma says oatmeal cookies are ok, then they are ok! I think I'm going to go grab one right now.