Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

I am horrible at making decisions. Luckily this does not crossover into my professional life. I have no problem deciding how to tackle a legal issue; but, in my personal issue I'm as wishy washy as they come.

When I was little my parents would take me and my siblings to Camelot, the local arcade and miniature golf place. In the arcade you could play skee-ball, win tickets, and pick out a prize with your tickets. There was a huge display case full of brightly colored plastic rings, yo-yos, little stuffed animals, etc. Basically it was all cheap, plastic crap. And I would stand in front of the display case and cry and cry and cry because I couldn't decide what to buy with my tickets. Decisions do not come easy for me.

And when I finally make a decision about something, I have a hard time sticking to my guns. If someone says why did you decide that and not this? I will usually respond, oh I don't know I guess I should have picked the other option, you're right, I'm wrong. Again, let me stress that I am not like this as a lawyer, you question my legal reasoning and I will take you down. But if you question my decision regarding a restaurant or whether I should bring a jacket out, I will come crumbling down.

There are a lot of decisions to be made during pregnancy. Decisions need to be made regarding what you will and will not eat, exercise, genetic testing, when to announce the pregnancy, and such. And as I make my decisions, I am starting to find the ability to finally stand up for my decisions and not let others question my decisions. For example, I have decided to completely cut out caffeine while I am pregnant. This sounds like an insignificant decision, it certainly does not impact anyone but myself. But I cannot tell you how many people respond with "oh a little caffeine is fine," or "I drank caffeine when I was pregnant and my kid is fine," or "oh that's just a bunch of hype." And I have been able to say to people, "for me, I have chosen not to drink caffeine," and that's that, end of discussion. Sounds simple, but this is a big step for me.

I'm glad that I'm getting experience in standing up for my decisions. I know people will only continue to question my decisions as I make decisions regarding being a working mom (and I will be a proud working mother), nursing, disciplining, education, etc.